More is comming !

Met dit nummer kan ik me goed identificeren, wat heb ik achter te laten, en wat draag ik bij aan de wereld, familie en vrienden ?

 

I dreamed I was missing
You were so scared
But no one would listen
'Cause no one else cared

After my dreaming
I woke with this fear
What am I leaving
When I'm done here?

So if you're asking me
I want you to know

When my time comes
Forget the wrong that I've done
Help me leave behind some
Reasons to be missed

And don't resent me
And when you're feeling empty
Keep me in your memory
Leave out all the rest, leave out all the rest

Don't be afraid
I've taken my beating
I've shed but I'm me

I'm strong on the surface
Not all the way through
I've never been perfect
But neither have you

So if you're asking me
I want you to know

When my time comes
Forget the wrong that I've done
Help me leave behind some
Reasons to be missed

Don't resent me
And when you're feeling empty
Keep me in your memory
Leave out all the rest, leave out all the rest

Forgetting all the hurt inside
You've learned to hide so well
Pretending someone else can come
And save me from myself
I can't be who you are

When my time comes
Forget the wrong that I've done
Help me leave behind some
Reasons to be missed

Don't resent me
And when you're feeling empty
Keep me in your memory
Leave out all the rest, leave out all the rest

Forgetting all the hurt inside
You've learned to hide so well
Pretending someone else can come
And save me from myself
I can't be who you are
I can't be who you are

 

Onlangs herontdekte ik dit nummer wat me veel inspiratie geeft en duidelijk een doel omschrijft en waar wat mij betreft gehoor aangegeven moet worden

We are a nation with no geographic boundries
Bound together through our beliefs.
We are like-minded individuals, sharing a common vision,
pushing toward a world rid of color-lines

With music by our side
To break the color lines
Let's work together
To improve our way of life
Join voices in protest
To social injustice
A generation full of courage
Come forth with me

People of the world today
Are we looking for a better way of life
We are a part of the rhythm nation
People of the world unite
Strength in numbers we can get it right
One time
We are a part of the rhythm nation

This is the test
No struggle no progress
Lend a hand to help
Your brother do his best
Things are getting worse
We have to make them better
It's time to give a damn
Let's work together come on

 

Veel kracht weet ik te putten uit dit liedje , wij staan niet alleen in ons gevecht tegen het negatieve

 

The future teaches you to be alone
The present to be afraid and cold
So if I can shoot rabbits
Then I can shoot fascists

Bullets for your brain today
But we'll forget it all again
Monuments put from pen to paper
Turns me into a gutless wonder

Refrain:
And if you tolerate this
Then your children will be next
Yes if you tolerate this
Then your children will be next, will be next

Gravity keeps my head down or
Is it maybe shame
At being so young and being so vain
Holes in your head today but
I'm a pacifist
I've walked La Ramblas but not
With real intent

And on the street tonight an old man plays
with newspaper cuttings of his glory days
 

In de jaren dat ik in chatboxen rond doolde en ik uit angst geen date kon krijgen was ieder woord een aanleiding tot een verscheurde werekelijkheld. Als ik details van mijn leven prijs gaf , leidde dat tot een verhoogde kans op ellende , en zo voelde ik dat ..

Ik voelde of ieder contact een potentieele srial killer was

 

Take a breath, take it deep
Calm yourself, he says to me
If you play, you play for keeps
Take a gun, and count to three
I’m sweating now, moving slow
No time to think, my turn to go

[Chorus -- JustJared.com]
And you can see my heart beating
You can see it through my chest
And I’m terrified but I’m not leaving
Know that I must must pass this test
So just pull the trigger

Say a prayer to yourself
He says close your eyes
Sometimes it helps
And then I get a scary thought
That he’s here means he’s never lost

As my life flashes before my eyes
I’m wondering will I ever see another sunrise?
So many won’t get the chance to say goodbye
But it’s too late too pick up the value of my life

 

Vaak heb ik het idee dat ik de enige ben die ziet dat onze instelling "over the top"  is. Als ik dit nummer luister dan weet ik dat ik niet de enige ben 

From underneath the trees, we watch the sky
Confusing stars for satellites
I never dreamed that you'd be mine
But here we are, we're here tonight

Singing Amen, I, I'm alive
Singing Amen, I, I'm alive


If everyone cared and nobody cried
If everyone loved and nobody lied
If everyone shared and swallowed their pride
Then we'd see the day when nobody died

And I'm singing

Amen I, Amen I, I'm alive
Amen I, Amen I, Amen I, I'm alive

And in the air the fireflies
Our only light in paradise
We'll show the world they were wrong
And teach them all to sing along

Singing Amen, I, I'm alive
Singing Amen, I, I'm alive
(I'm alive)



And as we lie beneath the stars
We realize how small we are
If they could love like you and me
Imagine what the world could be

If everyone cared and nobody cried
If everyone loved and nobody lied
If everyone shared and swallowed their pride
Then we'd see the day when nobody died
When nobody died...



We'd see the day, we'd see the day
When nobody died
We'd see the day, we'd see the day
When nobody died
We'd see the day when nobody died

Soms heb ik het gevoel dat de strijd gestreden is en dat ik heb gefaald en dat er een onherroepelijk oordeel over me is geveldt ... Dit is waar ik mijzelf dan mee terg:

Just like I predicted, we're at the point of no return
We can go backwards, and no corners have been turned
I can't control it, if I sink or if I swim
'Cause I chose the waters that I'm in

And it makes no difference who is right or wrong
I deserve much more than this
'Cause there's only one thing I want

[Chorus]
If it's not what you're made of
You're not what I'm looking for
You were willing but unable to give me anymore
There's no way,
You're changing,
Cause some things will just never be mine,
You're not in love this time...but it's alright.

I hear you talking, but your words don't mean a thing
I doubt you ever put your heart into anything
It's not much to ask for, to get back what I put in
But I chose the waters that I'm in

And it makes no difference who is right or wrong
I deserve much more than this
'Cause there's only one thing I want

[Chorus]
If it's not what you're made of
You're not what I'm looking for
You were willing but unable to give me anymore
There's no way,
You're changing,
Cause some things will just never be mine
You're not in love this time...but it's alright.

What's your definition of the one?
What do you really want him to become?
No matter what I sacrifice it's still never enough.

Just like I predicted
I will sink before I swim
'Cause these are the waters that I'm in

[Chorus]
If it's not what you're made of
You're not what I'm looking for
You were willing, but unable to give me anymore
There's no way,
You're changing,
'Cause some things will just never be mine
You're not in love this time.
Oh, if it's not what you're made of
You're not what I'm looking for
You were willing, but unable to give me anymore
There's no way,
You're changing,
'Cause some things will just never be mine
You're not in love this time
You're not in love this time
You're not in love this time...

 

 

 

Als ik weer droom van een hechte vriendschap, een onverbreekbaar verbond, het stichten van een groep verbroederde mensen en die illusie naast de Franse Revolutie zie , dan voel ik me weer nihilistisch maar ben ik vol verlangen van de liederen die zij ten gehore brachten, Lege stoelen , Lege Talfels....

Lege stoelen, lege tafels

Dit verdriet is niet te delen
Deze wond doet altijd pijn
Lege stoelen, lege tafels
Nu mijn vrienden niet meer zijn

Hier ontstond de revolutie
Hier ontstaken zij de vlam
En ze zongen van een toekomst
Van een toekomst, die nooit kwam

Bij die tafel in de hoek daar
Vormden zij een nieuwe staat
En zij zongen daar hun hymne
En oh ik hoor ze weer
Een hymne, die hun doodslied werd
Daar op de barricade
Eenzaam bij de eerste dageraad

Ik moest leven, jullie sterven
Vergeef me dat het zo moest zijn
Dit verdriet is niet te delen
Deze wond doet altijd pijn

En hun schaduw achter 't venster
En hun schaduw op de grond
Lege stoelen, lege tafels
Waar wij sloten ons verbond

Was het alles waard te sterven?
Dat 's een vraag die dringt en dwingt
Lege stoelen, lege tafels
En geen vriend die ooit meer zingt

Als ik mijn passie weer wil opwakkeren , luister ik naar de volgende text

 

Every story, tale or memoir
Every saga or romance
Whether true or fabricated
Whether planned or happenstance

Whether sweeping through the ages
Casting centuries aside
Or a hurried brief recital
Just a thirty-minute ride

Whether bright or melancholy
Rough and ready, finely spun
Whether with a thousand players
Or a lonely cast of one

Every story, new or ancient
Bagatelle or work of art
All are tales of human failing
All are tales of love at heart

This is the story
Of a love that flourished
In a time of hate

Of lovers no tyranny could separate
Love set into motion on the Nile's shore
Destiny ignited by an act of war

Egypt saw the mighty river as its very heart and soul
Source of life for all her people
That only Egypt could control
Destruction of her southern neighbor justified
Nubia exploited, left with little more than pride

 

 

Wanneer ik mij probeer aan te sterken en probeer te vergeven en vergeten hoe mensen misbruik van mij gemaakt hebben en ik een basis van wijsheden wil beschouwen met het idee dat ik ooit iemand met de waarheid in dit nummer kan helpen luister ik het volgende :

[Shelly Thunder]
Forgive us our trespasses as we forgive those that trespass against us
Although them again we will never never never trust
Hoo hoo hoo hoo hoo!
Them not know what them do
Big out to yi while I'm stickin like glue
Fling skin grin while them plotting for you true!
[singing]
Forgive them father for they know not what they do
(Me nah tellin them no more)
Forgive them father for they know not what they do
(Be real, them not a clue!)
Beware the false motives of others
Be careful of those who pretend to be brothers
And you never suppose it's those who are closest to you
To you
They say all the right things, to gain their position
Then use your kindness as their ammunition
to shoot you down in the name of amibition, they do
Ohhh
Forgive them father for they know not what they do
Forgive them father for they know not what they do
[rapping]
Why every Indian wanna be the chief?
Feed a man 'til he full and he still want beef
Give me grief, try to tief off my piece
Why for you to increase, I must decrease?
If I treat you kindly, does it mean that I'm weak?
You hear me speak and think I won't take it to the streets
I know enough cats that don't turn the other cheek
But I try to keep it civilized like Menelik
and other African czars, observing stars with war scars
Get yours in this capitalistic system
So many caught or got bought you can't list them
How you gonna idolize the missing?
To survive is to stay alive in the face of opposition
even when they comin, gunnin I stand position
L's known the mission since conception
Let's free the people from deception
If you looking for the answers then you gotta ask the questions
And when I let go, my voice echoes through the ghetto
Sick of men trying to pull strings like Geppetto
Why black people always be the ones to settle?
March through these streets like Soweto, uhh
[singing]
Like Cain and Abel, Caesar and Brutus
Jesus and Judus, backstabbers do this
Forgive them father for they know not what they do
Forgive them father for they know not what they do
It took me a little while to discover
Wolves in sheep coats who pretend to be lovers
Men who lack conscience will even lie to themselves, to themselves
A friend once said, and I found to be true
that everyday people, they lie to God too
So what makes you think, that they won't lie to you?
Forgive them father for they know not what they do
(Forgive dem, forgive dem)
Forgive them father for they know not what they do
(Forgive dem, forgive dem)
[Shelly Thunder]
Gwan like dem love while dem rip you to shreds
Trample pon yuh heart and lef yuh fi dead
Dem a-yuh friend who yuh depen pon from way back when
but if you, gi dem yuh back dem yuh mus meet yuh end
Dem not know what dem do do
Dem not know what dem do do
Dem not know, dem not know, dem not know, dem not know
Dem not know what dem do do
(Forgive them father, forgive them father...)

Als ik niet zo zeker ben of ik nou niet alles overdrijf of als ik gewoon even tot mijzelf wil komen en mezelf daardoor de rust gun om eens alles opnieuw te evalueren,

Dán is dit een goeie

All day long he was fighting for you
And he didn't even know your name
Young men come and young men go
But life goes on just the same

And I don't know why
Why do we keep holding on
I don't know why
Pretending to be oh so strong
Oh why
Is there something I don't know
Or something very wrong, with you and me
or maybe

That's the way it is, there's nothing I can do,
That's just the way it is.

They've been waiting for word to come down
They've been waiting for you night and day
They won't wait any longer for you
It may already be too late

And I don't know why...

You see the dying, you feel the pain
What have you got to say
If we agree that we can disagree
We could stop all of this today

It's been your life for as long as you can remember
But you cannot fight no more
You must want to look your son in the eyes
When he asks you what you did it for

'Cos all day long he was fighting for you
And he didn't even know your name
Young men come and young men go
But life goes on just the same

I don't know why...
 

als ik normaal kan denken en goed naar de muziek luister die ik langer luister dan hoor ik deze gast graag praten, het doet me tegelijkertijd twijfelen aan de realiteit maar ook aan een waan

 Come here iemand
[Iemand talking over chorus]
Come over here, sit down, let me talk to you
Right here, over here
Sit on daddy's lap
I want to tell you something
[Chorus: Amerie (Iemand)]
Life is a moment in space
When the dream is gone, it's a lonelier place
(This is life)
Life is a moment in space
When the dream is gone, it's a lonelier place
[Iemand]
Listen, yo
Little Iemand Nickel Nine, eyes wide with sight
With a future as bright as the light in the eyes of Christ
Ready to take on the world and whatever is in it
Proof read, sign, and seal whatever you finish
I can only lead you while you're on your quest for knowledge
I'ma teach you to have sense and to respect the dollar
Hope for the best, and you'll see, your world will be solid
I'ma teach you the truth, even behind worldly logic
This is life, cut and dry, days is bright, nights is dark
Fights get sparked, it's almost like to get ahead
You got to be twice as smart, the realities of life is harsh
Just know that God's keeping you level
He'll even speak through the ghetto to reach you
Just to teach you that the streets is the devil
Everybody's dishonest, different
Which means that we're dying by livin'
Oblivious to the time that we're given
So you don't prepare for the death, you live for the life
And live right like, do right by your kids and your wife
Have fun as a child, yo them years is precious
The future brings fear and stresses as the year progresses
You're gonna turn a lot of them down, you're gonna feel rejection
You're gonna tell a lot of lies and you're gonna hear confessions
It's a two way street when you deal in his presence -

 

Als ik denk an hoe ik verder moet en denk aan de genen die in mij gevloven en de mensen die me nog gaan geloven en me ondersteunen in de toekomt , luister ik dit nummer 

Sometimes I wonder if my beating heart has a reason
The thought of breathing only takes my breath away
Ive spent so many nights wrestling with this feeling
Do I have the strength to make it through the day
But I was never meant
To walk this road alone
I can always trust you
When you say

I will carry you
Be your strength
And pull you through
Reach for me
And take my hand
We will pray
And we will stand
In a world
Crying out for peace
Let your heart be strong
For when I am weak
You will carry me

Sometimes you wonder if the road youre on has a reason
Its hard to go on when you just dont know
We can shoulder all the weight of life between us
Until the fear of what we cannot see is gone
cause we were never meant
To walk this road alone
We are bound together
When we say...

 

 

Als ik het met iemand zou kunnen vinden dan is het deze vrouw

 

(talkin')
So tired
Tired of all this drama
You go your way
I go my way (no more, no more)
I need to be free

So tired
Tired of all this drama
Yeah

(singin')
Broken heart again
Another lesson learned
Better know your friends
Or else you will get burned
Gotta count on me
Cuz I can guarantee that I'll be fine

No more pain (no more pain)
No more pain (no more pain)
No drama (no more drama in my life, no ones gonna make me hurt again)
No more in my life

Why'd I play the fool
Go through ups and downs
Knowing all the time
You wouldn’t be around
Or maybe I liked the stress
Cuz I was young and restless
But that was long ago
I don’t wanna cry no more

No more pain (no more pain x2 )
No more game (no more games messing with my mind)
No drama (no more drama in my life, no ones gonna make me hurt again, no more)
No more in my life

No more tears (no more tears, I'm tired of crying every night)
No more fears (no more fears I really don’t wanna cry)
No drama (no more drama in my life I don’t ever wanna hurt again)
No more in my life
Wanna speak ma mind wanna speak ma mind

Hooh it feels so good
When you let go
Of all the drama in your life
Now you're free from all the pain (free from all the pain)
Free from all the games (free from all the games)
Free from all the stress (free from all the stress)
So find your happiness

I don’t know
Only god knows where the story ends for me
But I know where the story begins
It’s up to us to choose
Whether we win or lose
And I choose to win
Ohhhh...

No more pain (no more pain, no more pain, tired of crying)
No more game (tired of your planning games with my mind)
No drama (no more drama in my life)
No more in my life (no more x6)

No more tears (No more tears, no more crying every night)
No more fears (No more waking, be up in the morning)
No drama (leave me alone, go ahead)
No more in my life (hey yeah)

No more pain (no more)
No more games (no more games, I’m tired, I’m so tired)
No drama (No more x6)
No more in my life
No more

No more drama (I’m tired of all this drama)
No more drama (go ahead, go ahead, you demons getting out of my face)
No more drama (go get a my life, I'm about to lose my mind)
No more drama (help me, help me sing)

No more drama (no more drama, no more, no more)
No more drama (yeah)
No more drama (no, no more)
No more drama (help me sing, I need a piece of mine 3x)

No more drama (yeah all I need, hide but nicely I need to know that you are free)
No more drama

Oh no x2
No more x2
No more drama x2
In my, in my... life

So tired (I'm so tired)
Tired of all this drama

 

Als ik weer eens denk aan de dingen die zouden kunnen zijn en de dingen die niet lukken en de dingen die ik fout doe of niet gedaan heb en had moeten doen of kunnen doen dan luister ik :

Don’t give up
It’s just the weight of the world
When your heart’s heavy
I…I will lift it for you

Don’t give up
Because you want to be heard
If silence keeps you
I…I will break it for you

Everybody wants to be understood
Well I can hear you
Everybody wants to be loved
Don’t give up
Because you are loved

Don’t give up
It’s just the hurt that you hide
When you’re lost inside
I…I will be there to find you

Don’t give up
Because you want to burn bright
If darkness blinds you
I…I will shine to guide you

Everybody wants to be understood
Well I can hear you
Everybody wants to be loved
Don’t give up
Because you are loved

You are loved
Don’t give up
It’s just the weight of the world
Don’t give up
Every one is to be heard
You are loved

 

Als ik niet meer paranoia ben en wil geloven dat er mensen zijn die achter me staan dan luister ik tegenwoordig deze graag :

Hammerfall - Crimson Thunder Lyrics

We are the voices in the dark 

Inside the fire we are the 

Eternal Spark that will guide the way 



We are the stars up in sky 

We gather winds so you can fly 

We are the light when you're sleeping 



All your dreams can come true 

"Where do we go?" 

We're just a heartbeat away 



Follow the signs of the Crimson Thunder 

We will stay by your side 

Let our voices be there to guide you 



We are forces in the rain 

Inside your heart we are the 

unending answer to all your fears 



So take a step towards the light 

The crimson sky fullfills the night 

The revelation is near 



All your dreams can come true 

"Where do we go?" 

We're just a heartbeat away 



Follow the signs of the Crimson Thunder... 

We will stay by your side 

Let our voices be there to guide you 



[Solo: Stefan]



All your dreams can come true... 

Als ik me afvraag waarvoor ik het netwerk wil opzetten en waarom het niet lukt en of het wel ga werken dan en ik draai dit nummer dan voel ik me beter

 

Every time that I look in the mirror
All these lines on my face getting clearer
The past is gone
It went by, like dusk to dawn
Isn't that the way
Everybody's got their dues in life to pay

Yeah, I know nobody knows
where it comes and where it goes
I know it's everybody's sin
You got to lose to know how to win

Half my life
is in books' written pages
Lived and learned from fools and
from sages
You know it's true
All the things come back to you

Sing with me, sing for the year
Sing for the laughter, sing for the tears
Sing with me, if it's just for today
Maybe tomorrow, the good lord will take you away

Yeah, sing with me, sing for the year
sing for the laughter, sing for the tear
sing with me, if it's just for today
Maybe tomorrow, the good Lord will take you away

Dream On Dream On Dream On
Dream until a dream come true
Dream On Dream On Dream On
Dream until your dream comes through
Dream On Dream On Dream On
Dream On Dream On
Dream On Dream On

Sing with me, sing for the year
sing for the laughter, sing for the tear
sing with me, if it's just for today
Maybe tomorrow, the good Lord will take you away
Sing with me, sing for the year
sing for the laughter, sing for the tear
Sing with me, if it's just for today
Maybe tomorrow, the good Lord will take you away......

 

Als ik geen plaast meer kan geven aan wat mensen zeggen omdat ik te diep verzonken in gedachten over waarom ze reageren en met me omgaan zoals dat gebeurd dan draai ik :

Ik heb vannacht geschreven dat jij een ander bent
en als je toch jezelf bent gebleven heb ik jou niet echt gekend
Maar vriendschap kan verdwijnen
Haar eigen weg in slaan
haal ik de waarheid steeds dichter bij me
of blijf ik er ver vandaan?

Ik sta hier niet alleen
Maar nu wordt het stil...om me heen

Refrein:
Ademloos, in 1 keer radeloos
Ik heb geen plaats in mijn hoofd
voor alles wat je zegt.

Ik denk aan waar we waren
ik zag dat jij er was
om al de schepen die voor ons lagen
te verbranden in 1 nacht.
Meren worden zeeen
voor bij de hoogste berg
vanuit het dal naar boven bekeken
is het nog veel te ver
naar waar we willen zijn
en het doet meer pijn dan ik dacht...

REFREIN

Is er meer dan dit...??

Want nu ben ik ademloos
in 1 keer radeloos
ik heb geen plaats in mijn hoofd
voor alles wat je zegt

Ik ben ademloos
in 1 keer radeloos...
Of ik hier niets meer geloof
door alles wat je zegt
ik denk aan jou....

Als ik mensen wil gaan overtuigen en me indenk wat mensen allemaal moeten opgeven en aangaan als ze me volgen draai ik dit nummer met de de volgende tekst

Lonely
The path you have chosen
A restless road
No turning back
One day you
Will find your light again
Don't you know
Don't let go
Be strong

Follow you heart
Let you love lead through the darkness
Back to a place you once knew
I believe, I believe, I believe
In you

Follow your dreams
Be yourself, an angel of kindness
There's nothing that you can not do
I believe, I believe, I believe
In you.

Tout seul
Tu t'en iras tout seul
Coeur ouvert
A L'univers
Poursuis ta quete
Sans regarder derriere
N'attends pas
Que le jour
Se leve

Suis ton etoile
Va jusqu'ou ton reve t'emporte
Un jour tu le toucheras
Si tu crois si tu crois si tu crois
En toi
Suis la lumiere
N'eteins pas la flamme que tu portes
Au fonds de toi souviens-toi
Que je crois que je crois que je crois
Que je crois
En toi

Someday I'll find you
Someday you'll find me too
And when I hold you close
I'll know that is true

Follow your heart
Let you love lead through the darkness
Back to a place you once knew
I believe, I believe, I believe in you

Follow your dreams
Be yourself, an angel of kindness
There's nothing that you can not do
I believe, I believe, I believe
In you.

Soms als ik denk waarvoor ik zo moeilijk doe denk ik terug aan de tijden,

de tijden dat ik normaal kon denken, boos kon worden, mij ergens over druk kon maken, koude rillingen over mijn rug kon krijgen, mij erg kon schamen voor iets, me ergens voledig voor in kon zetten, Het is juist dan dat ik dit nummer opzet en denk,

Wie zullen er dan echt zijn om mij bij te staan ?

Nog een kans
Nog een keer
Opnieuw beginnen, die laatste volkomen nieuwe start
Al voel ik mij verlaten en verward

Nog een kans
Nog een maal die kans te krijgen
Die ik aangrijp uit het diepste van mijn hart
Maar ik weet als geen ander
En dat maakt me zo bang
Nog een kans
Nog een maal duurt zo lang

Wie houdt mijn hand vast
Wie staat mij bij
Wie streelt de kilte uit mijn huid
Wie geeft me vleugels
Wie maakt mij vrij
Zeg mij, kom ik hier ooit weer uit

Nog een kans
Nog een keer
In vrijheid leven. Die dag komt. Dan kan ik het weer aan
Er moet ergens geluk zijn
Ik wil alles geven voor een arm, die om me heen zal slaan
Die kans komt, dat weet ik
Die zal ik pakken. Ik jaag er wanhopig achter aan

Maar ik weet als geen ander
En dat maakt mij zo bang
Nog een kans
Nog een maal
Duurt zo lang

Maar ik weet als geen ander
En dat maakt mij zo bang
Nog een kans
Nog een maal
Duurt zo lang

Oneindig, genadeloos lang

 

Als ik dan eindelijk iemand denk gevonden te hebben en met die mens spreek en die mijn dromen in duigen laat vallen of het stof is op het boek van de waarheid draai ik dit nummer en zink ik zover het nog lukt weg in mijn gedachten...

She sits in her corner
Singing herself to sleep
Wrapped in all of the promises
That no one seems to keep
She no longer cries to herself,
No tears left to wash away
Just diaries of empty pages,
Feelings gone astray
But she will sing

'Till everything burns
While everyone screams
Burning their lies
Burning my dreams
All of this hate
And all of this pain
I'll burn it all down
As my anger reigns
'Till everything burns


Ooh, oh


Walking through life unnoticed
Knowing that no one cares
Too consumed in their masquerade
No one sees her there
And still she sings


'Till everything burns
While everyone screams
Burning their lies
Burning my dreams
All of this hate
And all of this pain
Burn it all down
As my anger reigns


'Till everything burns
Everything burns
(Everything burns)
Everything burns
Watching it all fade away
(All fade away)
Everyone screams
Everyone screams..
(Watching it all fade away)
Oooh, ooh..
(While everyone screams)
Burning their lies
Burning my dreams
(All of this hate)
And all of this pain
I'll burn it all down
As my anger reigns
Til everything burns
(Everything burns)
Watching it all fade away
(Oooh, ooh)
(Everything burns)
Watching it all fade away...

 

Als ik weer iemand iemand tegen kom die zijn of haar belofte niet na is gekomen dan denk ik het kan weer verder het is nou eenmaal zo en draai ik :

 

She embraces with a smile
As she opens the door
A cold wind blows
It puts a chill into her heart

You have taken away the trust
You're the ghost haunting through her heart
Past and present are one in her head
You're the ghost haunting through her heart

Take my hand as I wonder through
All of my life I gave to you
Take my hand as I wonder through
All of my love I gave to you

You have taken away the trust
you're the ghost haunting through her heart
Past and present are one in her head
You're the ghost haunting through her heart

Take my hand as I wonder through
All of my life I gave to you
Take my hand as I wonder through
All of my love I gave to you
 

Als ik ga tellen hoevaak ik teleurgesteld ben door de mensen die ik ben tegen gekomen , die om mij heen leven en die ik nog deels vertrouw, draai ik :

 

Everything's gonna be alright
Everything's gonna be alright

Whoever thought the sun would come crashing down
My life in flames, my tears concrete the pain
We feel the end, the darkest, deepest riverbed
My book of life ain't complete without you here
Alone I sit and reminisce, sometimes
I miss your touch, your kiss, your smile
And meanwhile you know I never cry
Cuz deep down inside
You know our love will never ever die

Everything's gonna be alright
Everything's gonna be okay
Everything's gonna be alright
Together we can take this one day at a time
Can you take my breath away?
Can you give him life today?
Is everything gonna be okay?
I'll be your strength
I'll be here when you wake up

Take your time, and I'll be here when you wake up

I never thought my heart would miss a single beat
Caress your hands, as I watch you while you sleep
So sweet, I weep as I search within
To find a cure, to bring you back again
And the sun will rise, open up your eyes
Surprise, just a blink of an eye
I try, I try to be positive
You're a fighter, so fight, wake up and live

Everything's gonna be alright
Everything's gonna be okay
Everything's gonna be alright
Together we can take this one day at a time
Can you take my breath away?
Can you give him life today?
Is everything gonna be okay?
I'll be your strength
I'll be here when you wake up

Everything's gonna be alright

I'd give my life to only see you breathe again
Hand in hand as we walk on the white sands
To hear your voice, rejoice as you rise and say
This is the day that I wake, and pray, okay?
Tears in silence, as time just moves on
You can't hear it though, but I'm playin' my favorite songs
I miss you much, I wish you'd come back to me
You see I'd wait a lifetime, cuz you're my destiny

Everything's gonna be alright
Everything's gonna be okay
Everything's gonna be alright
Together we can take this one day at a time
Can you take my breath away?
Can you give him life today?
Is everything gonna be okay?
I'll be your strength
I'll be here when you wake up

Als ik dan toch geen gehoor krijg op mijn vraag om lievde en begrip als ik het nodig heb en de moed op heb gegeven denk ik vaak dan denk ik aan een phantomische vriend of een overleden persoon of aan iemand die er stiekem toch voor me is en altijd zal zijn en mijn hele pagina leest ....en draai ik :

you think i'd leave your side baby 
you know me better than that 
you think i'd leave you down when you're down on your knees

i wouldn't do that 
i'll tell you you're right when you want 
and if only you could see into me 
ha ah ah ah ah ah 
oh when you're cold 
i'll be there 
hold you tight to me 
when you're on the outside baby and you can`t get in 
i will show you you're so much better than you know 
when you're lost and you're alone and you cant get back again
i will find you darling and i will bring you home 
and if you want to cry 
i am here to dry your eyes 
and in no time 
you'll be fine 
you think i'd leave your side baby 
you know me better than that 
you think id leave you down when you're down on your knees 
i wouldn't do that 
i'll tell you you're right when you want 
and if only you could see into me 
ha ah ah ah ah ah 
oh when you're cold 
i'll be there 
hold you tight to me 
when you're low 
i'll be there 
by your side baby 
oh when you're cold 
i'll be there 
hold you tight to me 
oh when you're low 
i'll be there 
by your side baby

Als ik dan mijn moed weer verzamel om verder te gaan met mijn zoektocht naar mijn mogelijke camaraden draai ik :

Where's the love we had ?
When did it go bad ?
Or am I just insecure ?
I give all I can
Baby I'm your man
Tell me what you're in this for
Remind me

I can't go on
I know not what to do
My heart is worn
I feel as If I'm through
Please believe in me
'Cause what I need is for you
To believe in me

Countless sleepless nights
Never ending fights
I'm trying to make your dreams come true
I will sacrifice to find paradise
But I need to know you're behind me

I can't go on
I know not what to do
My heart is worn
I feel as If I'm through
Please believe in me
'Cause what I need is for you
To believe in me

I can't go on
I know not what to do
My heart is worn
I feel as If I'm through
Please believe in me
'Cause what I need is for you
To believe in me

I can't go on
I know not what to do
My heart is worn
I feel as If I'm through
Please believe in me
'Cause what I need is for you
To believe in me
To believe in me
To believe in me
To believe in me

Dit geeft me weer een reden om verder te gaan en het geloof in mezelf terug te vinden , om dit af te ronden draai ik :

Many nights we've prayed

With no proof anyone could hear

 In our hearts a hopeful song

We barely understood

 Now we are not afraid

 Although we know there's much to fear

We were moving mountains Long before we knew we could


There can be miracles

When you believe

Though hope is frail

 It's hard to kill

Who knows what miracles You can achieve

 When you believe Somehow you will,

Now you will

You will when you believe

In this time of fear

When prayer so often proves in vain

Hope seemed like the summer birds

Too swiftly flown away

 Yet now I'm standing here

 My heart's so full,

 I can't explain

Seeking faith and speaking words

 I never thought I'd say


So in times when all your hope is gone

 And you go through life afraid

In your heart there lies a hopeful song

 That is there to guide the way

And all the hurt and all the pain

 You soon will learn was not in vain

 For all your prayers,

 they will be heard

They'll come to pass through faith

Als ik dan weer terug keer in mijn gevoelsmatige wereld van bedrog en ongeloof waar ik mijn lichtpuntje gevonden heb draai ik het volgende nummer en geef ik mijn eigen betekenis aan de woorden als ik dit nummer vol bewondering luister:

Aprendimos a quererte
desde la histórica altura
donde el sol de tu bravura
le puso cerco a la muerte.
 

Aquí se queda la clara,
la entrañable transparencia,
de tu querida presencia
Comandante Che Guevara.
 

Tu mano gloriosa y fuerte
sobre la historia dispara
cuando todo Santa Clara
se despierta para verte.
 

Vienes quemando la brisa
con soles de primavera
para plantar la bandera
con la luz de tu sonrisa.

 

Tu amor revolucionario
te conduce a nueva empresa
donde esperan la firmeza
de tu brazo libertario.

 

Seguiremos adelante
como junto a ti seguimos
y con Fidel te decimos:
!Hasta siempre, Comandante!

Vertaling :

We leerden van je te houden
vanop de historische hoogte
waar de zon van je moed
de dood in bedwang houdt.

Hier blijft de helderheid stralen,
de innige klaarte 
van jouw geliefde aanwezigheid,
Comandante Che Guevara

Uw sterke overwinnershand
schiet de geschiedenis aan flarden
wanneer heel Santa Clara
ontwaakt om je te begroeten.

Je komt de nevel doorbreken 
met grote lentezonnen 
en plant de vlag van de vrijheid
met het licht van je glimlach

Je revolutionaire liefde
brengt je tot een nieuwe strijd
waar anderen op de kracht 
van je bevrijdende arm wachten

We zullen doorgaan je lief te hebben, 
zoals we aan jouw zijde doorgingen met de strijd
en net als Fidel zegge we jou
“Voor Altijd, Steeds weer, comandante!”

 

Als ik me dan weer indenk wat er met me gebeurt is en wat de mensen misschien met me gedaan hebben denk ik aan de mogelijkheden en krijg ik weer even het gevoel terug en draai ik :

close my eyes underneath a full moon who shares her smile
here I'll wait just for her entrance
soft words spoke but heard aloud
she holds me here
but she can't hear what's on my heart screaming:

can you stay for awhile or just forever
open eyes
you're gone

when i find you, you go away
close my eyes for another day
just to find you
here i'll pray
make a wish for you to stay
just forever

reach to light
throwing smiles that will last forever
and she renames mountains for me
afraid to leave
afraid to open my eyes to my loss
perfectly she holds my face screaming:

Wanneer mij de harde realiteit mij weer op de schouders tikt ,keer ik naar mijn innerlijke en vergeef ik mijzelf voor het verdenken van iedereen vergeef ik ze zoie zo hun zonden en draai ik :

Do you know what they say,
Do you know what they say, what they say about you?
Do you know what they do?
Do you know what they do, when you leave the room?

Never thought twice about holding your tongue,
Once upon a time you were so young.
Everywhere you carried around your soul.
In the night they stole it, left you skin and bones - knife in your back.
Laughing aloud at your expense, fed themselves on innocence - knife in your back.
Their attacks inserted doubt, now you're stranded in the cold with a knife in your back.

Do you know what they feel?
Do you know what they feel, what they feel for you?
Do you know how they play?
Do you know how they play, how they play inside you?
Do you know what they steal?
Do you know what they steal, what they steal from you?
Do you know how they prey?
Do you know how they prey, how they pray upon you?

Never thought twice about holding your tongue,
Once upon a time we were so young.
Everywhere you carried around your soul.
In the night they stole it, left you skin and bones - knife in your back.
Laughing aloud at your expense, fed themselves on innocence - knife in your back.
Their attacks inserted doubt, now your stranded in the cold with a knife in your back.
Tell me did you grow after all these years?
Giving up control and buying into fear,
Night slips into morning and days remain unchanged,
But their mighty appetites will not be tamed.

Do you care, do you care?
Do you care what they say?
Do you care what they say, what they say about you?
Do you care how they prey?
Do you care how they prey, how they prey upon you. Upon you.

Als ik me dan toch laat gaan in haat en afgunst, verdriet en wanhoop draai ik iets zoals :

New blood joins this earth
and quickly he's subdued
through constant pain disgrace
a young boy learns their rules

with time the child draws in
this whipping boy done wrong
deprived of all his thoughts
a young man struggles on and on he's known
a vow unto his own
that never from this day
his will they'll take away

what I've felt
what I've known
never shined through in what I've shown
never be
never see
won't see what might have been

what I've felt
what I've known
never shined through in what I've shown
never free
never me
so I dub thee unforgiven

they dedicate their lives
to running all of his
he tries to please them all
this bitter man he is
throughout his life the same
he's battled constantly
this fight he cannot win
a tired man they see no longer cares
the old man then prepares
to die regretfully
that old man here is me

what I've felt
what I've known
never shined through in what I've shown
never be
never see
won't see what might have been

what I've felt
what I've known
never shined through in what I've shown
never free
never me
so I dub thee unforgiven


what I've felt
what I've known
never shined through in what I've shown
never be
never see
won't see what might have been

what I've felt
what I've known
never shined through in what I've shown
never free
never me
so I dub thee unforgiven

wo o wo...

never free
never me
so I dub thee unforgiven

you labeled me
I'll label you
so I dub thee unforgiven

never free
never me
so I dub thee unforgiven

you labeled me
I'll label you
so I dub thee unforgiven

Voor hen die ook vechten voor een normaal en leefbaar leven en nog idealen hebben maar niet weten waar ze moeten beginnen draai ik :

I know your dreams
I know your cries
Each breath I've memorized
And I would do anything
To help you win your fight
But it's not enough to make you smile
It's never enough
But what more can I give?


More than love
More than this
More than what's in these two hands
More than love
More than me
But I can't give more than I am...
More than I am...


I see the searching in your eyes
And I feel helpless by your side
So many spaces I can't fill, but God knows how hard I try
You say you need more and I die inside
You always need more
But what more can I give?


More than love
More than this
More than what's in these two hands
More than love
More than me
Cause I can't give more than I am
No matter what I do it's never good enough for you


I'm trying to be
Everything that you need
And I'm barely breathing
And you're still not happy
After all that I've done
All I've become is never good enough for you
For what's more than love
More than love?

Oooh...
More than love...
More than this...
More than what's in these two hands


Tell me what's more than love
Tell me what's more than love (more than this)
What is it that you need (oh...)
That I can never be
Tell me what's more than love (more than love)
Tell me what's more than love (more than me)
What is it that you need (oh...)
That I can never be (and what's more than love)
That I can never be (oh yeah...)
That I can never be

 

Als er iemand slecht over me spreekt dat ik verkeerd tegen de wereld aankijk of dat mijn opvattingen fout zijn over bepaalde zaken dan draai ik :

Come stop your crying, it will be all right
Just take my hand, hold it tight
I will protect you from all around you
I will be here dont you cry

For one so small,you seem so strong
My arms will hold you keep you safe and warm
This bond between us cant be broken
I will be here dont you cry

And youll be in my heart
Yes, youll be in my heart
From this day on
Now and forever more
Youll be in my heart
No matter what they say
Youll be here in my heart
Always

Why cant they understand the way we feel
They just dont trust what they cant explain
I know were different but deep inside us
Were not that different at all

And youll be in my heart
Yes, youll be in my heart
From this day on
Now and forever more
Youll be in my heart
No matter what they say
Youll be here in my heart
Always

Dont listen to them, cause what do they know
We need each other, to have and to hold
Theyll see in time, I know

When destiny calls you, you must be strong
I may not be with you, but you gotta hold on
Theyll see in time, I know

Well show them together cuz...

Youll be in my heart
I believe, youll be in my heart
Ill be there from this day on
Now and forever more

Youll be in my heart
No matter what they say
Youll be here in my heart always

Always...
Ill be with you
Ill be there for you always
Always and always
Just look over your shoulder
Just look over your shoulder
Just look over your shoulder
Ill be there always

 

Als iemand vind dat de wereld niet het verbeteren waard is , of als ik terug denk aan mijn verloren hoop door de dwangbehandeling die mij is aangedaan draai ik de volgende tekst en weet ik weer waarvoor ik het doe :

Do you know where you're going to?
Do you like the things that life is showing you
Where are you going to?
Do you know...?

Do you get
What you're hoping for
When you look behind you
There's no open door
What are you hoping for?
Do you know...?

Once we were standing still in time
Chasing the fantasies
That filled our minds
You knew how I loved you
But my spirit was free
Laughin' at the questions
That you once asked of me

Do you know where you're going to?
Do you like the things that life is showing you
Where are you going to?
Do you know...?

Now looking back at all we've planned
We let so many dreams
Just slip through our hands
Why must we wait so long
Before we'll see
How sad the answers
To those questions can be

Do you know where you're going to?
Do you like the things that life is showing you
Where are you going to?
Do you know...?

Do you get
What you're hoping for
When you look behind you
There's no open door
What are you hoping for?
Do you know...?

 

Als ik naar de gebouwen kijk waar mensen regelementen maken wetten bepalen en ideeen afkeuren denk ik ,hopelijk zullen ze ooit bezinnen en zin ik van binnen :

 

May it be
An evening star
Shines down
Upon you

May it be
When darkness falls
Your heart
Will be true

You walk a lonely road
Oh how far you are from home

Mornié Utúlié [Quenya: 'Darkness has come]
Believe and you
Will find your way

Mornié Alantié [Quenya: 'Darkness has fallen']
A promise lives
Within you now

May it be
The shadow's call
Will fly away

May it be
You journey on
To light the day

When the night is overcome
You may rise
To find the sun

Mornié Utúlie [Quenya: 'Darkness has come]
Believe and you
Will find your way

Mornié Alantié [Quenya: 'Darkness has fallen']
A promise lives
Within you now

A promise lives
Within you now...

 

Als ik faal een idee over te brengen of mensen neit idealistischer heb kunnen maken en ze zich niet inzetten voor de doelen die ik  ze heb aan gedragen voel ik me schuldig aan nalatigheid en draai ik :

The world seems not the same
Though I know nothing has changed
It's all my state of mind
I can't leave it all behind
I have to stand up to be stronger

[Chorus:]
I have to try
To break free
From the thoughts in my mind
Use the time that I have
I can say goodbye
Have to make it right
Have to fight
'Cause I know in the end it's worthwhile
That the pain that I feel slowly fades away
It will be all right

I know
I should realize
Time is precious
It is worthwhile
Despite how I feel inside
Have to trust it'll be alright
Have to stand up to be stronger

[Chorus]

Oh, this night is too long
Have no strength to go on
No more pain I'm floating away

Through the mist I see the face
Of an angel, calls my name
I remember you're the reason I have to stay

[Chorus]

 

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Waar voor vergeven wij bekenden waar men een onbekende meteen op sluit?

Waarom nemen we bij de één klakkeloos iets aan terwijl dit bij de ander meteen op logisch verzet stuit?

Waarom zien wij niet in dat wat voor de hand ligt en meteen naar logisch verzet duidt ?

Precies die reden heeft het dat we zeggen:" veel kan maar DIT sluit ik wel uit."

Om deze reden zien wij vaak dat een ieder toch zijn ogen sluit..

 

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Waarom zijn we geneigd het avontuur te zien waar gewoon rust en harmonie heerst ?

waarom denken wij vaak , bij dit punt arriveerde  ik toch echt het eerst ?

Waarvoor redeneren wij niet zo bij de meeste mensen al zijn de mensen ons zelfs het deerst.

 

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In het leven vraag ik mij af of je wel zoveel vragen vragen mag ,

was het zo dat ik de juiste vragen stelde en dat een oplettend figuur dit zag ?

Wordt een geest niet helemaal paranoide wanneer deze door waarheid wordt  verrast ?

Wanneer komen de heersers van de zendmasten eindelijk met hun echte plannen uit de kast ?

 

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Dramatiseren wij van dag tot dag alles zo of is het simpel weg de waarheid dat niemand je streven weten mag ?

Voelen wij de onderdrukking uit andere delen van de wereld hier door het bericht van mens tot mens van dag tot dag ?

valt het ons ook niet op dat alles hier goed is en het altijd aan de ander lag ?

kostte het jou ook zoveel moeite, schrik en ongeloof voor dat jij dit zelf eindelijk echt  inzag ?

 

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Hoelang moeten we nog leven in een wereld zo duister en onvergeefelijk?

Terwijl wij  weten dat het anders kan en we kunnen streven naar een mooiere wereld vol pracht en onverbeterlijk?

Geven we  in ons hart deze drang op en geven we toe aan de troosteloosheid van ons innerlijk?

 

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Mijn blik op het heden,

ik verdoem de recente toekomst  beelden naar het verleden,

Niet toegeven ,niet laten gebeuren gaat er door mijn hoofd,

Tot op heden is dit vuur in mijn nog nooit gedoofd,

Brandend op leed woede verdriet en wandaden,

compenseert de fakel van de oprechtigheid de komende tijden van smaden,

Van binnen voel ik het vuur minder hard branden .

omdat het aangetast is door onreine handen.

mensen denken dat dit goed werkt

en dat men vooruit gang merkt,

de ideeen zouden worden gerelativeerd en de gedachten gangen beperkt

Ze hadden het zeker niet verwacht dat het mijn gevoel had versterkt.

Want ideeen en gevoelens hoe diep ook onderdrukt

deze worden niet zomaar uit mijn gedachten gerukt,

Wat kon zijn en zou kunen komen,

heb ik altijd en daar zal ik altijd nog vanblijven  dromen.

Eens komt de dag dat ik kan zeggen

Ik ben blij dat ik nu de problematiek voor kan leggen

dat we samen de problematiek eens goed uit kunnen gaan dreggen.

De tijd is hier en nu gebeurd wat ik wil...

en dan valt voor eens iemands stem helemaal stil...

overthuiging en ongeloof gaan dan gepaard

als mijn idee zich op dat moment openbaard...

 

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